Why can't I stop taking this person back?

[ElektraLOL]

I'm 38 and he's 50. He's been married before and so have I. But his daughter doesn't speak to him.

Basically, in the last year we have broken up and got back together about 5 times. Every time he comes back saying this time it will be different. He loves me and he wants us to have a future etc. And that the reason he ended it last time was because he wasn't over a situation, or he was stressed about work or something else or something else.

We have about 2-3 months of him telling me how much he loves me and texting me all the time, talking about us living together in the future.

Then he suddenly gets annoyed with me about something and ends it. This time it's because he moved about 2 hours away from me (his choice and he is now also a long way from his mum and son) and we don't see each other enough apparently and I don't make enough effort to see him. I have a full time job as a spa therapist so when I'm not working I'm resting and I also have a daughter who lives in Derby in an autism specific school so whenever I'm off I'm visiting her.

I reminded him that he's messed me around repeatedly and that he's out of order and he said us getting back together was all my responsibility and that I kissed him (not true). He told me he loves me repeatedly and then always turns on me. He apparently sees nothing wrong with how he has behaved.

I know that this is a waste of my life and I've blocked him and told him never to contact me again. But he starts coming to my work to find me, emails etc.

I know that he will continue like this probably forever so why do I fall for his BS of it will be different this time?

Today, he came into my work and left a stupid card for someone to give me Why is he giving me things I don't want?!! The last thing I said to him was 'you are a gaslighting prick and I never want to hear from you again'

Is he actually insane?

'You can learn'?

Nah mate, YOU can learn! Blameshifting much?!!

Read your posts as if written by a friend or even a poster on here. What would your advice be?

You know he's no good for you so keep him blocked and ignore any other means of communication.

That's what he does though. He turns the entire thing back on me whatever it's about.

It would have taken him 2 hours to drive to my work. He's definitely got a screw loose.

The card is meaningless when he repeats it over and over again.

Hearing about cheating with prostitutes would have had me packing.

Ignore the card.

Oh I will. I'm wasting my life with this idiot. The card certainly means nothing and is actually him trying to blame me.

Just stick it in the bloody bin where it belongs!

Oh I did don't worry. I hope I'm not stupid enough to ever take him back again. This was the 4th time.