I've NC as I've posted about my story before but don't want to link to that.
Short story is out of the blue DH told me he wasn't happy and left (we have small children). Over a few months we started rebuilding our relationship with a bit of counselling and just making effort with each other. He's now back home and on the face of things it's going well.
My problem is that I've completely lost all the trust I had for him. We've been together a long time (over a decade) and I've never had a reason not to trust him. But his behaviour was so hurtful so not only do I not trust his feelings but I'm also questioning everything he does (in my head, not to him) as I still wonder if there was someone else involved when he left. (Overwhelmingly that was what I got told on here however he's always denied it and I have no proof).
I don't want to get into whether he did cheat or not but rather if it's possible to get our relationship back to where I can trust him assuming I'll never actually know. I desperately want to make our marriage work and keep our family together.
Please be gentle!