I asked my STBXH to leave in October. We'd been struggling for a long time and I was so frustrated and angry with him just leaving everything to me. He was fed up of living with us just as I was fed up of living with him. At first I was shocked, numb, sad, angry. As time has gone on I've really started enjoying living with just DD again. I've pushed the divorce and our Nisi goes before court next week. We are selling the house and DD and I have found a new place to move to. STBXH was back staying with us last weekend due to an issue with his accommodation. He stayed in the spare room and his presence drove me nuts. He left on Monday and it was such a relief.
Today I woke up feeling sad. Sad that it is all over, sad for him. I don't think I am regretting the soon to be divorce I just feel sad. I just don't know why (and wish it would stop!)