Exdh & my babies it hurts so much.

[peachypie]

seeing exdh with the kids tonight reading stories and playing breaks my heart all over again, we seperated this yr and although i feel stronger than i did it hurts so much to see what could of been( us all sat together listening to him reading from a book).
i pretended to myself while he was here tonight in my own head for a min that every thing was ok and we were a happy family again.I just wanted to kiss and hold them all and never let go. is that really odd?
Seeing him with ds and dd is so lovely i really enjoy watching them play and interact but it also hurts so much.
When will i stop loving him? he has done a lot too hurt me but i do still love him and i cant get my head around that.
I really want to move on but finding it very difficult.

Oh Peachypie, I really don't know what to say, just wanted to send you lots of hugs and tell you this feeling won't last forever, given time it may stop hurting and if you have a good relationhip atm even if it's only for the sake of the children, you may end up even being friend of your ex, but don't look back unless you are in a position to change the things.