Good night... I am a very sensitive person, my parents didn't provide an stable childhood as they have alcohol issues. I left home as soon as I could. Have eating problems and low self-esteem. Last year my best friend killed herself apart from dad having a stroke, my sister attacked me in front of my children, I had a very traumatic c section that went infected and couldn't look after my babies for a couple of weeks... And at has just added up and I feel like all my life I have been there for everyone, the good person... But when I need someone for me everyone lets me down, my partner is not an exemption. He is very tough and doesn't understand how I feel even when I tell him how emotionally exhausted and drained I feel. I get it is hard to put yourself in someone elses shoes specially mine... But I just want to be able to relax for once in my life and have the certainty that someone is watching my back, that is safe for me to relax and sleep and leave all the crap I suffered behind. A safe place... What can I do to feel better what am I doing wrong?