I’ve had a hell of a couple of months. My partner left me, amongst other things he stole from me to fund his gambling, this happened end of November. He didn’t look back which hurt the most. I’m still devastated that I let him use and manipulate me. He apparently does this often and I feel like such a fool. I know I am better off without him but I am still hurting. I had to take time off my work in December because this triggered a massive anxiety attack. I had a sickline from my work which took me up to Christmas and I returned yesterday and today feeling positive and trying to press on but my work called me at 7pm tonight to tell me they were letting me go due to the fact that I was in my probationary period when I was absent (my 6 month probationary expired on the first day I was absent and they opted to extend it) I am gutted. I alone raise my son, I don’t get any maintenance and I only receive ssp last month. I’ve just paid £484 for this months nursery fees which I could have avoided if they had told me on Wednesday instead of having me work for 2 days then sack me. Anyway, my car also got broken into on New Year’s Eve and I’m just feeling really overwhelmed. I can’t stop crying. I wish I was a stronger person. I wish I could cope with things but when something happens I crumble. My ex told me after he left that I was a very negative person (I have been through a lot of shit) I feel like I dwell on the past and can’t move on and I have bad luck after bad luck. I want to be a strong, confident, positive woman but I don’t know where to begin to change. I want the self doubt, negative thoughts and low self esteem to go away. I’m already on anti depressants but I don’t feel that they help but I’m on max dose and doctor doesn’t think I should change these as they help with nerve pain I suffer as well. I don’t want to rely on meds anyway, I feel I need to change who I am!