So it's been 3 days since I posted here about leaving my bully partner. As most of you read I did it.
I'm free from the volatile atmosphere.
I have posted on here quite a few times under a different name. Miserable, alone and desperate for support.
It took some kicking from you guys and inner strength but I finally pulled my act together.
He's gone and house viewing. So he isn't coming back.
Of course he is singing all the right tunes and begging ect. But I'm not listening anymore.
I sincerely hope he gets the help he needs for the children.
Just a few things I keep reminding myself of.
He told me "jokingly" my boobs were too small to feed our baby, I'd have no milk supply. Besides he had a right to feed his baby. So I never got chance to breastfeed.
Screaming and swearing at me in front of the children. Calling me a slag and telling me I was sleeping around and shit in bed.
Telling me he could have his ex back when he likes.
Making me cry numerous times on my birthday.
Leaving me to wake up alone after heart surgery.
Pushing me into the shower that turned on cold while pregnant.
These are just a few I am now free from.
Of course he wasn't all bad. But they never are.
So just three days after breaking free from my 2nd and last abusive relationship, I have put my big girl pants on and come into work my NYE night shift. Putting one foot in front of the other to create a fabulous future for my babies.
I've survived rape twice!
A Horrendous abusive relationship with sexual assault, financial, physical and emotional abuse.
Two open heart surgeries, sepsis and a heart attack.
And my last ever abusive relationship. I'm wise to it now and will be working on me.
But, I'm in a fabulous job. I'm in uni getting my degree and have 4 amazing children.
So thank you ladies and happy 2019.
I'll leave this here to post back and remind me of how far I've come.
Feel free to share your heartaches too!