First post to help me put things into perspective. Basically there is a colleague at work I have fancied for a long time. We are both single, he is a few years older and a bit higher up in our company. To my amazement, attraction appeared to be mutual, we have worked together a lot over the last year and grown closer talking about personal life etc. He would always seek me out at work drinks and recently admitted he liked me. There has been texts in the evenings at first work related then personal stuff and a bit flirty. I admit I have been enjoying this attention. I was hoping one day he would make a move and maybe things would move forward between us. Well we had our Christmas party earlier in the week and it was just so different. We had a chat at the beginning but then started talking to other people and he never made an effort to come and talk to me like he normally does. At one point he appeared to be flirting with another lady who was there with her colleagues also having their work party. I was amazed by the strength of my feelings and felt very jealous and sad. To me this suggests that he is not into me as much as I hoped. He probably likes flirting with me and enjoys attention but that’s probably it. It was getting late and I got up to leave and saying goodbye to people including him, he hugged me and held me but I pulled away quickly (normally enjoy this bit) and walked out without looking at him. Now I am agonising that he knows I was annoyed by the lack of attention and worried I gave away how much I care about him and now that I have realised he probably doesn’t i feel like a fool. Can anyone think of a way to let him now that the manner in which I left has nothing to do with him? It sounds ridiculous I know but I cringe inside. Also, now I just want this feeling to end, I don’t wan to be addicted to that fuzzy feeling every time he texts or puts his arm around me. Just want to move on..