I saw my exDH out last Friday night and I felt so guilty. He has put on some weight, looked bloated and miserable. I went to ask him how he was and he said he was tired from working a long day the previous day. I instigated the split. We had been to see my DS perform in a band and left the venue together but he had to rush ahead to get his train with my other DS. I still care about him and I think the fact he refused to talk about anything when we split makes it worse. It's the time of year isn't it. I've said sorry numerous times but his whole demeanour upset me and all I could do was worry about him the next day. Its been seven months since we separated so early days. I keep thinking of all the happy times we had together I can't seem to remember why we separated. I'm hoping time will help.