Feeling bittersweet

[Amazona24]

My younger sister got engaged today to her DP of 5 years. I am truly happy for them. They suit really well but I've held back the tears.today because I wish that was me. I'm a single mum and been single 2 years now. I'm very unlucky in love and always have been. I just wish i could find the right person for me! I don't even go out that much anymore to find anyone so my chances are slim and the likelihood of me being single for years to come is high. Like I said I'm happy for her just wish I had that.
Not really asking anything just needed to say it on here and can't really tell my parents as it's my sister's moment and well I have no one here at home with me to chat to.

Poor you! It’s okay to feel upset when someone else’s good news highlights to you what is missing in your own life. People can have conflicting emotions at the same time.

Bear in mind other people could well feel that about you, given that you’ve got a child! You don’t know who is secretly struggling with infertility or desperately wishes they could meet someone to have a child. Your sister’s relationship may look amazing from the outside but you don’t know what’s going on inside, I know loads of seemingly perfect couples who end up splitting unexpectedly during the engagement, someone’s cheating, there’s abuse. I’m sure this isn’t the case for you sister but try not to feel awful about your sister achieving something you haven’t yet, you don’t know what the future holds.

Don't feel guilty for feeling like this, its only natural. I'm a single parent and worry I won't find anyone. I felt a bit like this when my best mate found herself a boyfriend. However, she has no children (and too old now) so I thank my lucky stars I will always have them.
I also look at all the people in unhappy relationships and remind myself that I'm lucky not to be stuck in one myself (I was for years).
No-one's life is perfect, try to focus on what is good in your life.

Thank you. I know when I sit and think about it in lucky that I'm not stuck in an unhappy relationship as I was 2 years ago with DS dad. Sometimes the lonliness is hard and this makes it feel worse. But you're right I have my DS and no bad relationship. Just need to keep reminding myself that in these moments

You're allowed to feel sad at times though. I do too. 90% of the time I'm perfectly content being single and being able to do what I want. 10% I think it might be nice to have someone.
We can't have everything in life unfortunately - or its unusual to get everything you want. Don't assume you'll never meet anyone either, it could just as easily happen for you as it has for your sister!