Daddy to be feeling very anxious

[Pantana90]

I will be a dad for the first time in about 8 weeks but lately I constantly worry "what if I don't love my child?"
I have a history of anxiety throughout my life and always think worst case scenario. I think the problem is with my partner (who's amazing) that I have at times been unsure of my love for her.

It's just how I am, I question everything. I would literally move heaven and earth for my partner and baby, but I don't "feel" much if you get me. That warm fuzzy feeling is very rarely there and I want it to be.
I'm determined to be the best dad I can be and will devote all my energy to my baby, so is what I'm feeling normal? There's been times when I have felt great but I just want to be able to stop questioning everything in my head. Can anyone relate? Thanks :D

Don't panic and don't expect it to happen immediately. It'll come.

Its also helpful to be realistic and realise that your partners primary focus will be the baby (due to biology/vulnerability of baby/physical fatigue) and as well as bonding with and spending time with your lovely little one, think of co-parenting in the early days as ‘mum looks after baby, dad looks after mum and baby’ (imagine your protective arms around them both and hers around the baby). If you can look after her physically and emotionally you will be a great Dad, and a great family unit.

Hi OP, I think go in assuming you won't feel much for a good few weeks.

After all, why would you? The baby is stranger. It will just need stuff at first and not give anything back.

But that's okay, because those feelings will come. Just give them time. DH I would say first "felt something" about DD1 at about 2 weeks old and then had a big rush of bonding around 8 mos when the bfing slowed down and she could say da da.

You'll be fine.
That parenting bond will hit you at the most unexpected moment and the rush of love, wonder and protectiveness just gets bigger and bigger, deeper and deeper.
Don't worry if that rush doesn't happen immediately. Don't feel bad or feel as if you're lacking somehow. It can happen the moment you hold your new born and it can happen much later on.
We're all different.
It may be an idea in the interim to do some work on your anxiety OP. Being a parent is such a huge responsibility and we all want to do our best and that in itself can make us feel anxious in case we're not! But you do need to control any personal excesses in an effort to avoid passing on those anxieties to the child.
I have a relative who has been brought up in a ridiculously fearful environment by two parents who always do their best for him, love him unconditionally and worry unnecessarily about everything.
Sadly, it's spilled over into my nephew's personality and he's become risk avoidant. You need to create some sort of balance between being healthily anxious about real danger and dismissive of the 'Sky is falling in', variety.

Calm down and stop sabotaging yourself. You will love and adore your baby, I promise. Don't ruin such an amazing time in your life with pointless anxiety.

You will be fine. Similar to what @Aquamarine1029 said, you cannot predict or control in advance the emotions you will feel when you see your baby and so your anxiety is crippling you in a pointless manner. You will connect immediately, the baby is part of you and you will feel it and you may be nervous about doing things right, but first babies bring those fears and nerves for a lot of people.

So you’ve had periods of being unsure whether you love your partner?

How long have you been together, was the baby planned? What’s the context regarding you being unsure of your feelings for her but remaining together?

I bonded with my girl immediately, difficult pregnancy mother carted off me left in a corridor stroking her hair, I knew then that I was her Dad and I would ever adore her. My boy a little later took a little time despite me nursing him for the first two weeks of his life little bugger never slept, again mother ill. But I cannot explain the deep bond of love I have for both of my children. You sort of grow into parenting , don't be a shit dad even if you break up with your partner and always be there for them. The rest will come.