I kicked my husband out in July this year after I saw messages come through on his phone. He admitted to a fling whilst working away. A few weeks prior to me finding these messages, he told me "I love you but I'm not in love with you" anymore. I knew then he had had his head turned. What didn't sit right with me was that he stayed away too easily. He loves his daughters and for him to not show any fight at all didn't sit easily with me. He packed all of his personal belongings and moved into work. I had my suspicions she was pregnant as the message I saw said "this is ridiculous, you/I need to get this sorted". Well my gut was correct, she was pregnant. I only found out she was pregnant as we were chatting about child maintenance and he said he had future commitments to think about. I asked him outright and after a few times of asking, he admitted it. He told me he didn't know she was pregnant when I kicked him out and he only found out a week after I had kicked him out. Well fast forward, and I have moved home (420 miles away from him). The day we left, we spoke on the phone and we both could not believe that it had come this far. My husband is now acting as though he has done nothing wrong and it is what it is. He keeps saying "I left you not the girls". I am now home with my daughters and feeling so hurt, confused and sad. I know deep down that if she was not pregnant, my family would still be together and then I feel awful for thinking that I would have put up with it. Has anyone else gone through this and does it get easier? I love my husband so much but he has just so easily replaced me with her and everyone seems to be accepting of it. I am the one struggling so much, I'm actually dying inside.