I usually read posts and a few have helped; however, I thought if I tell my story I might get some advice.
Me and my ex split up about 8 months ago, we have 2 boys so contact will always be there.
I still love him and he does me (I think), but he's said in the past not as much. We've still been sleeping together, which I know is wrong as I always feel crap after it. He dated someone for a few months and I was heartbroken, as he asked me that he possibly wanted to introduce the children to her after christmas. After a few weeks of that conversation I sent him a long message of how I accept he's moved on and I hope he's happy. In a way I felt I got closure.
Fast forward a month after that, and he is no longer with her, as she didn't want to commit.
So now I feel I'm right back to square one, we've started sleeping together again and sometimes he comes round to see the kids and maybe have tea.
I always feel like he'll regret it one day (maybe I'm just making myself feel better). We were together 15 years and he was my first of everything, so even now the thought of dating is so scary.
I say to him, if you don't want to be with me and you don't love me as much as I do you, then why would you continue to do this. I feel I'm the easy option to him (he says that's not true).
We're still friends as we broke up due to being unhappy.
Has anyone been in a similar situation, and if so how the hell do you move on. I'd love to cut all contact, but it's hard when you have kids.