Don't really know why I'm writing this, need to get it off my chest but I know I can't leave.
Was planning on leaving my partner 1 1/2 ago for a number of reasons but mainly as he didn't want another child (we have 1 DS aged 5), had no intention of getting married and had no intention of moving house (house was on market to move from our starter home to a family home) all in all id had enough with the unaffectionate relationship.
I spent 4 months trying to get him out of the house, this went on for so long that I started to weaken, found out my friend was pregnant and I started to think what if we could make it work ( by this point my partner was promising another child/ house move / marriage, affection. I decided to give it another go, hoping that if we were now on the same page we could make things work.
Fast forward to now, we have another DS ages 4 months and have moved house.
The only thing is he's still the same, has short temper, still not affectionate, doesn't really respect me deep down.
We have 2 gorgeous sons and a lovely house but I'm sad that I'll never have a friend or real partner in this relationship.
All feelings of resentment crop back up when he flies of the wall. Eg he's just been putting a tv cabinet together, effing and blinding in-front of the kids, getting frustrated.
I've started to record him from tonight and will do so every time he looses his temper. I'll then make a lovely compilation for just.
Thanks for listening (reading)