Could you forget? Forgive?

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When I first got with my partner I found out he was messaging people online - sexual encounters and turned out it was asking for a massage by a man
I was disgusted and ended things but he was adamant it wasnt when we were together
I've tried to forget and along with trying to forgive and forget lies to me about money, dealing with his moods, I've just come to the end of my tether. Nothing is his fault - it's always mine. He's never sorry for the moods, only when I end things.
for some reason I can't keep thinking about those messages for massages to men....it niggles at me even though he says I need to forget
We've argued today and I've not heard from him
Argument was him being in a bad mood lately
Help

I'm struggling to see any good points with him tbh. You should ask yourself why you're accepting such shitty treatment and move on from this waste of space

The hills are that way, run for them. He's sleazy, they don't change ime.

He sounds so much like my ex I'd be unsurprised there isn't some factory out there, churning these headfucks out.

Lol 😂
Ive put up with so much of his crap it's unreal
Put my own needs aside for this man
I found massage parlours of the country he went on holiday this year to ' clear his head' as he's had a hard life and needed to get away.
It was on his YouTube history
Then convinced me he didn't actually go to any....I can't help but feel sick that he did...I don't know why i agreed to forgiving forgetting in the first place
Turns out I can't
It's been making me feel ill and sick inside
Horrible when you get to the point of realising you're happier alone then being with someone like he was
I feel so stupid and can't believe I let myself fall for someone like that
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I mean really, why are you with him? Look at what you’ve written.

You did an emoji at the state of your relationship
That says it all treasly 👀

There is nothing positive in your post, and you've not even said you have feelings for him, let alone love him. Why are you still with him?

Not sure what you’re getting from this relationship OP, is this the future you want for yourself? Why do you think you are worth so little. LTB he does not love or care about you.

LTB