Anger has kicked in

[onemoresmartie]

If anyone remembers me from previous posts I am still hanging in there but this evening I feel uncontrollably angry at my ex and I don't know what to do...I drove to the village he lives in today and sat a street away but I didn't go to his door...I don't even know what I was doing there
His family have deleted me from a thread we were all on for Christmas and it's infuriated me that Not one of them have asked me how I am when I have been nothing but supportive to all of them.

I just don't know what to do...I feel like sending a few home truths and exploding

OP you need to get some help. I mean that kindly. This isn't normal or healthy.

Can you explain why?

Why? Do you like the drama of it?

You went and sat a street away from where he lives. You post over and over and I er about him. You think his family should have taken your side.

He sounds like a cunt. You aren't to blame for his cunty behaviour. But I think you enjoy it, you like the drama and I doubt that you are totally innocent in it all. Your addicted to the shit.

I wouldn't be in contact with my relatives ex when they had such a fucked up relationship.

It's not healthy. For you or your son.

@onemoresmartie
Hi there. I’m unaware of your previous threads but I completely hear that you’re angry. It’s tricky to offer advice when I don’t knows what’s happened previously, however what I can work out is that you’re on here because you desperately need some support. It’s horrible being cut out of things and I can imagine it’s so frustrating. Frustration can build to anger. The only trouble is, if you act on it, you play into their hands or view of you. When people shout, very few times are they heard. You did the right thing coming on here instead x

Stalking is illegal. Imagine how mortified you will feel if he rings the police .

Go home, find a box set.

Thank you Ozziewozzie I've had a cry at my mum and dads and now I'm having an early night
Tomorrow is a new day

Isn't one of his relatives really ill or in hospital? Sorry if I'm getting confused with another poster. But his family are probably busy with that and they're his family so even if they are sympathetic and "one your side" are likely to stay out of it as its him theyll be living with (not literally) for the rest of their days not you.

I'm glad you are away.

And I think be grateful they haven't turned on you and started harassing for breaking up, etc. Lots of families get weird and venomous after a break up even if "their" side was clearly at fault.

Stay away from him as like someone else pointed out it could come back to bite you. You need as much time as possible "in" other things to keep your mind off him. No more driving to his house! You can do it.

Thank you I will not drive there again. I drove their mindlessly and felt numb I didn't even know why I had done it...I'm glad I didn't go to his door or see him. Each day will hopefully get better
Thank you for your words and advice I really do appreciate it all
It really helps to be able to come on here and vent

Your family are there for you. His are there for him. Blood is thicker than water.

Your rage does seem of the charts a bit.

I don't know your backstory...but try and relax. Focus on yourself for now and consider some talking therapy.

Feeling sick to my stomach this morning...hard to get up and put a face on for work when all you want to do is hide in the house

Can you book a therapy session? It is not a nice way to be left and you are obviously processing all that. Therapy might give you the mechanisms you need to cope.

Remember - sometimes we have to give ourselves closure rather than expect it from other people.