I don't know why i feel this way. I broke up with him about a year and a half ago when i was pregnant with our DD. If I'm being honest he treated me terribly towards the end but he clearly had a lot of mental issues due to certain things that had happened to him, he always made me feel bad, if i was having a bad day his was always worse. But we had good moments as well, we used to spend all our time together and it's still weird not having him around. Not long after breaking up with him he took off, left me a simple message explaining that he was going to live with a friend in a city a few hours away. I didn't reply to that message, i didn't even contact him after our DD was born, I'm not even sure if he knows her name. That's been on my mind a lot lately, I keep nearly messaging him. It's partly because i don't want DD to grow up not knowing her dad but also because i just want to know he's doing okay but i don't know why i do as he's never asked me