So brief background I've had a lot of problems in my marriage, no infidelity or anything like that but mostly me holding onto past resentments, unable to fully forgive and move on. Which has led to where we are now, separated and living apart. I desperately want to fix our marriage and work on things but he is not open to that at the moment. Though he has said maybe we can talk in the future and maybe we will be able to reconcile one day. Anyway how can I stop feeling so awful about it all? It's constantly on my mind, I can't eat, I feel like I'm stuck in limbo at the moment. I know he needs space from it all at the moment but I am so afraid the longer we don't talk or connect properly the further we'll drift apart. I know I can't do anything at the moment other than wait and I am trying to do things to improve myself. I have booked in to begin counseling next week and I've found a new hobbie and ive even started some driving lessons but still it is constantly on my mind and I feel desperate to talk to him all the time but I know that will only make things worse right now. Any advice to get past this constant horrible feeling?