Just got Decree Nisi & feel so sad

[WelshRach5]

Even though I wanted this 
he ignored me a lot, didn't listen to anything I said, we weren't a team. I didn't feel loved or protected.
But for the first time in 3 years I feel so desperately sad, for the kids and for my future. I haven't met anyone else & I feel very sad we're not a family.
Anyone else felt like this?

I didn't personally. But I can imagine why you would. It's very stark there in black and white isn't it?

One day at a time. x

I did OP and even though l feel happier since he left, l will be upset when the Absolute arrives any minute now.

I don't want him back but l never envisaged my life to be this way and l feel down that l couldn't make him happy enough to want to stay and try and make it work

I left my husband and the divorce process was quite amicable and straightforward (no kids, Scotland), I had no regrets and had moved on. I still felt utterly bereft when my divorce was finalised. I was heartbroken to be honest and felt such a failure. A lot of my friends were like 'woohoo congrats' or 'let's crack open the champagne' and I felt like lying in a dark room crying. I do think it's quite normal actually, it's part of the grieving process. Don't beat yourself up about it, but don't wallow either - look to the future as well.

Ironically my Absolute arrived today. Am absolutely gutted and have shed a lot of tears today but tomorrow is a new start - onwards and upwards