I've been with my b/f almost 2 yrs now. We have just moved in together, although he is away 3-4 nights a week for work. I was prev in an abusive marriage&im worried that my scars&insecurities are going to ruin this relationship.My b/f tbf has been my rock thru my divorce&the battle for my kids (ex tried to turn them against me. I think my b/f & I are now in a settled stage of the relationship but sometimes (more so recently) I can't stop thinking that he's got too comfortable. My sex drive is much higher than his but due to my low self esteem and body image (I am a bit overweight) I suddenly feel than I can't initiate sexual stuff...so this only occurs when he initiates. I'm soon frustrated and my mind is running wild..it's cause you've put weight on ...its cause your older than him & maybe he wants someone younger...it's cause he's got u he doesn't need to make an effort. It's even started happening if we don't snuggle on the settee or because kisses are only passing pecks and nowt passionate like they were in the beginning. I've tried talking to him but in the past my ex & my mum (childhood) always made me feel that my opinions, feelings etc meant nothing, so i just scratch the surface of what's really going on. I just need regular reassurance from him hugs, kisses...made to feel wanted and desired but I'm scared to death to admit that for fear of been ridiculed and/or rejected. The crazy thing is during my divorcee etc he could always make me see sense and ground me....so I don't get why I simply can't explain myself over this. Starting to feel alone&isolated now... 😢😢