Anyone want to leave but don't want to deal with the uncertainty of life alone?

[purple8pig]

Just that really? Dh and I are definitely not soul mates. We are so different, without going into it too much he has led and cheated I've tried to forgive etc but it's hard. He's into games, comics, memes, I want to talk about real things, the kids education, the current issues surrounding trans, my career (or lack of)

But after 4 babies (2 ridiculously large) my body is ruined and after his cheating and lies my confidence is shot so I really don't think I could ever be with anyone else even in the remote possibility someone would give me the time of day.

Not really looking for advice but it's anyone else in a similar situation?

(BTW I'm not being unfair to him, he knows I'm not happy but would rather me be with him and not happy than separate)

Your husband sounds like mine. I too am deeply unhappy. I want to leave but don't, not for the same reasons as you, but because we have a 'nice' life. Kids are in good schools, we are fed, have a roof over or heads in a good area etc.
The problem, I think, is that we got together young, now 3 kids later and in our 30's we have literally zero in common, no shared interests, nothing to talk about, nothing. Our marriage is pretty much empty.
It's shit, but until I can secure something for our children I won't leave.

I feel the same tbh, my husband and I have nothing in common, nothing to talk about and I dread the weekends when I have to spend time with him. But he is a wonderful father and we have a "nice" life. I am not happy but I have literally no idea how I would cope alone now. I need todo something as I find myself getting more and more irritated by him and it's a miserable way to live.

I'm sorry to hear others are in the same situation but it's comforting to know I'm not alone. Maybe that's a good point, I'm more unsatisfied with life, I think I need to try to fill the void before I do something as permanent as leaving him, maybe then the relationship will seem better and have a different meaning.

We too live in a nice area, nice schools etc which would all be up in the air if we were to separate. It's hard getting together young and then several children later realising you've no longer anything in common x

Sometimes I worry that it's a long time to spend with someone who you don't really like.
Once the kids leave to do their own thing there will be nothing keeping us together besides 20 years of marriage.