@hatemylife
Do you recognise any of the contradictions in your post? For example, you imply a degree of resentment at being on your own at the weekend but then say you want to be on your own. Same with wanting him to talk through the argument and his reaction but at the same time putting up the barrier of not speaking to him. Apologising for your behaviour but expecting him to defend it.
I think the average person would be scared of you and for you right now. By that I mean, scared that anything they say could provoke anger or hurt in you. The most emotionally intelligent person would struggle to know what you want, because it doesn’t add up.
Is this you normally or is this a new development? I think you sound as though you are struggling with your temper and control. If this is recent you may be suffering from stress or some hormonal imbalance. I just think you may be not coping with something fundamental in your life and not just your husband.
Do you want to be this this way? Leaving your husband is probably easier to consider than confronting the reason you are losing control. But separation and divorce will be no picnic if you are stressed already. The risk that you would alienate your family will be great.
I think at this point you want comfort from a loved one, maybe your husband. However you have thrown up barriers that might be making it impossible for him to offer it.
Stress, anger, frustration and resentment seem to driving you actions and reactions at the moment. This is not a good thing. It means any decision you make will be poor. You need to address them before you make a major decision like leaving your husband.
It could be that you need medical support. Maybe see your GP.