Two steps backwards

[Noseyrosey991]

I’ve posted on here before about a shit storm relationship I haven’t been in since June. I was doing so well but every month at the ‘same time’ I get all in my feelings and emotional. I’ve removed all links to him on social media but he’s in the public eye and very easy to ‘stumble’ across. I’ve learnt a lot about him as a person since we split up and yet I still think about him / miss him and get emotional like this.

I’ve done everything advisable - get a hobby, read, socialise, meet others but I’m still thinking about this arse wipe.

Such a pointless post, I do know that but I’m feeling so shitty tonight

Better to post here than to crack & contact him!

At least you recognise him for what he is, and not seeing him through rose coloured specs! You just have to hang on tight.

Thank you

It’s just so annoying because right now, he’s being painted as such an amazing person in the media but I know otherwise. He’s a text book narc and I’m also struggling with the guilt that I believed him and supported him through something pretty shitty relating to an ex he painted to me as being crazy. I’m likely now that crazy ex in the eyes of my replacement.

It’s a constant argument I have with myself lol. Hopefully when it’s no longer that dreaded time of the month my emotions will be back in check and I’ll feel better again lol.

Xx

The good thing is that you’re aware of it! Know your triggers. Mine are ovulation time, and if I’ve had a few drinks. Then you can see it for what it is and realise you don’t really want to contact him

@slowlyshrinking mines always day 1-3 of period. I just wish I’d go back to crying at RSPCA adverts and not over this twerp

Ha I do the crying at rspca ads too, but just before my period. The times I think of a particular dickhead of my acquaintance are just when I fancy a shag, to put it bluntly
It must be extra difficult if it’s someone well known though.
Just takes time but I’ve done it before and will do it again!

I’m fine on the lead up. Then BAM I’m a mess lol. Yes it’s pissing me off to keep seeing him pop up but I’m sure I’ll get there too! I was more cut up over him than my ex fiancé of many years. It’s so annoying x