Please don't be too critical of me I just need your advice. I've been seeing someone for a year and yesterday we had an argument. It was my fault. I have this way of reacting and I know it's not good.
I've done it before in previous relationships but not very much only in the early stages of my marriage of eighteen years. I tend to go on the attack and be defensive rather than just say how I feel. I've spoken to my boyfriend about it and explained and because of other things that were happening he said he understood. I have been for some counselling due to my marriage breakdown.
When I first met my DP I was instantly put on this pedastal. I was the best looking, the funniest, sexiest girlfriend he'd ever had. He was very insecure needed constant reassurance had Ed also. He bent over backwards and still does.
He is very nice to me. We came home after being away for five days and his car was parked at mine. We didn't really get anytime alone as my son was with us. He grabbed his bag and said I'll be off and went to give me a kiss goodbye. I was upset as I had wanted to sit and get a cup of tea but he said he had loads to do. I know I over reacted and didn't say how I felt. I just feel as if there has been a change in his attitude. He can be so full on and then when it doesn't suit him he is off. The other thing is he seems to have so many sides to his personality. I don't mean as in multiple or mood swings but very emotional and intense. He seems to have very different sides to him.
I didn't hear from him yesterday. I phoned him in the morning probably the wrong thing to do and he was very cross at the way I'd over reacted. I said I was sorry. It's obviously more complicated but he went on about all my faults and so I asked him if he wanted to finish it. He doesn't want to make a decision as he's still angry! So hopefully hell let me know! I am leaving it until he contacts me now. I haven't written everything that's happened as its too long winded. I'm feeling low so if you have any criticism of me please write it as kindly as possible.