Was disowned by family at age 15, but kept in touch with my grandmother through writing letters. I asked to meet her but she said she wasn't keen on that until we'd all made up - however this isn't going to happen. Eventually the letters tailed off.
However, I'm considering writing to her again because I really do love her and enjoy hearing from her - but I'm not sure I can handle the "it would be so nice if you all made up" talk - because it really isn't a possibility 
am I being selfish? Should I just suck it up and write to her? I know she doesn't mean anything by it but I just get hurt hearing it..