So, after an 18 year relationship and an 11 year marriage with two wonderful DCs I called time on it due to a variety of reasons. XH was not nice to me and made me feel very low and depressed. So as not to drip feed, I have had a succession of awful relationships since the word go which have simply made me feel unimportant and worthless. I was date raped at the age of 19. Back to the issue. Shortly after I left my husband (3 years ago now) I struck up a friendship with a man who is 11 years younger than me, during which time we took on a physical challenge together and did a lot of fundraising. We spent a huge amount of time together. There was an amazing connection from the start. Of course, one thing eventually led to another and we slept together. However. He has never wanted to take it to the next level, despite his feelings for me. I feel this is mainly due to me having two children and being older, and potentially his mum disapproving. I am totally in love with him. Over the last 3 years he's continued to sleep with me at various points despite getting into new relationships, all of which he has hidden from me on purpose. To make things worse, we now run a company together, so I have no reprieve of escaping this absolute crap. Today he's uploaded a photo of him and his girlfriend (who he completely hid from me until just after the last time we had sex) as his new FB profile picture. I know deep down what you are all going to say to me, but I guess I need to bloody hear it as my self esteem is on the floor. Please help me gain some self esteem and move on.