He has just left me

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My OH if two years has just walked out.
I'm broken, distraught, a mess, can barely type.

Don't know what I'm doing on here, don't know anything. Numb

He's gone. I feel sick. Don't know what to say

Just typing shit

Things have been difficult since his dad died in June, I thought we could work through it

We had been together three years, he said he loved me as he walked out. Said he had let me down.

Grieving or not, his behaviour is appalling towards you. You really need to get him out (and his things!) and draw a line under this.

Your house WILL feel like your own again given a bit of time and once he has no access to it. Get his stuff out then switch around a few things, maybe some new bedding etc. And maybe change the locks if there's even the slightest chance he has kept a key.

Sweetheart you are guilty of nothing other than being mixed up with a narcissistic son of a bitch! A death in the family in no way excuses the shitty behavior he’s had in regards to you and your relationship. So what if you’re rushing his two-timing ass out the door? It’s your fucking house!

I agree with other posters.

You stuck by him through this difficult time in his life and there is no excuse for the way he has treated you, grief or not. He needs to leave and you need to be allowed the space to think about what you want.

You sound like you are a very kind and empathetic person but don't allow yourself to be treated in such an appalling way just because he was dealing with his grief. It doesn't give him the right to treat you with such disrespect.

One thing to take from this is that you are a very strong person for trying to make things work and to support him through his grief - that says a great deal about you
But everybody has their limits and you don't deserve to be treated like this.

Kick him out and start thinking about yourself

Get him gone, we've all lost parents, mine both, I didn't then go about trying to shag other men; he's making a complete mockery of you; do not let him tangle you like you are nothing; stop allowing it!

I wouldn't let him stay one more night. If anyone behaves like that they deserve to be chucked out.

And no, he's not upset about his dad dying - screwing around isn't the normal response to grief. He's telling you it's because of his dad to make you feel guilty.

How are you doing today op?

Thank you asking.

Feeling very meh. One minute I would love him to come back, the next I hate him

I haven't had any contact and been keeping myself busy. My horse fell ill on Wednesday so she has been keeping me occupied.

Home is very quiet, cats are sulking. Don't know why, he wasn't their biggest fan!

Going out for lunch with a friend tomorrow