I feel awful typing this because I feel I should be happy.
I've been off for a year now on maternity.
A few people I know have had babies and at the beginning I made an effort with one of them. I kept organising things and opening up about my life etc but it felt like I was just entertaintaining her - if that makes sense? She never organised anything and to be honest I found her a bit exhausting because of that. I just felt like I was getting nothing out of the relationship. She recently said she is depressed.
I've been going to a mother and baby group but it's only an hour a week and we do activites /dont get that much opportunity to talk.
I go back to work in 2 weeks and a lot of the staff there are like my friend. They're depressed. Always complain etc. I feel sorry for them but I want more now I've become a mum.
I feel lonely but I love being with my kids. Just wanted to vent and see if if it's normal. Am I the one with the problem and should I be making more of an effort with my friend?