This is really long, sorry, but I appreciate any help I may get)
Hey everyone, just so you know a little about me, I'm 24, pregnant for the first time and in a relationship with the baby's father..
I love him, a lot, despite what's happened.
Before we got together, I was in a really awful relationship with someone who none stop cheated on me and abused me, mentally, emotionally and physically. I was also raped by him.
I told my new bf about all of this, and he was so shocked and really showed me he was caring about it and paid attention and made me feel special again.. a few months into the relationship, I fell pregnant and when I told him, his reaction was completely unexpected and very hurtful so, I broke up with him with the plan of termination. Within a week he called and said he missed me so much and didnt want us to split up, so asked me to get back with him, and, as I was gonna ask him anyway when I next saw him, I said yes, told him I was keeping the baby and he was actually happy this time and said he can't wait! Fast forward to where we are now, due to my last relationship I'm very insecure and like to snoop, so I went on his phone one night and, hey look, he had cheated on me. As far as I'm aware it was only the one time, and it happened before we knew we were pregnant, split up, then got back together.. He told me he only did it because he was going through some massive changes (divorce, new job, moving back home 140 miles away) and said he just didn't see it working out between us and was going to break it off, but knows it's still no excuse/reason to cheat. He has assured me that he is sorry, says its the one and only time he's ever done anything like that, he sobbed and sobbed begging me not to leave him and asked me to give him a chance to prove himself for me and the baby, so I did, because he genuinely seems sorry but I'm not sure if I will ever trust him again/if I believe it's the only time he has done it. My last relationship I dealt with this really badly and stopped eating as much and lost a scary amount of weight because I was constantly stressed.. Also I kinda expected the cheating from the last bf, but not the one I'm with now, it's so out of character.
As I'm pregnant I obviously haven't repeated my actions but I literally am forcing food down as I'm just never hungry. I just want to make sure I'm doing the right thing or ask if any one has any advice to give me or tips on how to move on.. I don't want to leave him because I want to have a family with him only, and I know he's going to be such a great dad when the baby comes, but I just couldn't cope if it ever happened again :/ so yeah.. any advice would be great and I look forward to hearing from you all!