Ok so this is something that I just can’t work out... my partner of 4 years keeps leaving me like he will literally just tell me it’s over cut me off for weeks and let me beg and beg until he forgives me thing is though looking back I’d done nothing but been neglected of attention... affection... if I had something that was bothering me I would talk and he would stone wall to the point I just cry at him and plead but nothing! Then in the morning it would be like nothing ever happened... this time he left and I was devastated my mum was ill I thought she was going to die he cut me off texts read calls dropped he hated me, but I didn’t do anything wrong, a week or two later he had the children at mine I got In drunk jumped into bed and we had sex I thought everything was great the next day we held hands kissed he said he loved me... great!! Then a day later I told him I was planning on cooking us a meal on the weekend and he just told me no he didn’t want to spend time together, he didn’t know if we’d work I was humiliated felt used and crushed... that’s when I gave up on him. Few weeks later I get drunk and stupidly meet a guy and we sleep together (yes we’re broken up) now I feel bad I feel wrong I feel like a whore and to my complete surprise ex done a 360 he can’t live without me, he’s depressed he didn’t mean it, he’s seen the error of his ways the past four years, he will give me everything I’ve been dreaming of, he really will try, he’s on anti depressants... getting help and he looks so so genuine but now I’m torn I don’t want to not be single right now and run the risk of hurting like that all over again but if I don’t could I literally be walking away from the love of my life my family father to my kids all because I can’t be bothered risking being hurt and going through him abandoning me again. Anyone else been through this and could give advice? Really need it tia xx