Struggling to be satisfied

[JustOneApple]

I have a lovely partner, a good job and a house.

But I'm so desperately sad. I can't picture this just being my life forever now.

We are TTC and have been hit with multiple miscarriages so far. Now it seems all I want is to be a mother and I can't be satisfied with anything else.

I feel like I'm spending my days waiting for something that seems to happen to everyone else rather than enjoying the fact I have a man who loves me and a good stable life. I'm so desperate and down all the time.

I'm 25! I have time. But I've never experienced this sort of impatience before. Everything is boring to me except the prospect of having a child now. I just want to skip my life until it happens.

I feel so guilty on my partner he's trying so hard to get me to just enjoy our time just us but I feel so dissatisfied with everything right now.

Sorry about the mc. Very rough going I know. Sounds cheesey but write a bucket list for you both to work through before you get a bfp. Your relationship needs to be in peak condition for that day and time spent doing stuff together/having fun is a good thing!
And am sure you know being stressed isn't helpful!

Thank you. I just feel so awful knowing that it someone offered me a fast forward button right now I'd take it in a heartbeat. It's such a waste but that's how I feel.

I like the idea of a list. Maybe I'll try it tonight. Thank you