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[YorkshireGirl2016]

I have been with my husband for 8 years. Married last year. We have had our ups and downs....more downs to be honest. He is from a very troubled background.
He had an addiction to a class A drug and I thought that he had managed to detox...through much pain and hospital referrals. About 5 years ago he was caught drug driving but he escaped a ban. And he has just been caught again. The drugs in his system are legal and to help with his detox. He will either get prison or a ban this time.
I'm so alone. No one knows anything about this. I spend every night awake while he is fast asleep on the pills he takes to stop the pain of detox.
I know he is trying his best to get over this. I just feel so lonely, helpless, lost, worried and tired. I have lost all my confidence. All of this is bringing out a personal in me that I don't like

From my experience and I am assuming its personal to each person but I just had to make the decision to take a step back and allow the other person to take responsibility for their own actions. In your case, if he loses his driving license and stuff he will have to organise himself for getting to and from places. Help him by all means but only when its not putting you to the bottom of the list all the time etc. If he gets into debt, or loses jobs and things its on that person to sort it out you can't pick up the pieces. Its very very hard to do but you need to step back from it all and allow them to fall or fly basically.

Have you had any contact with support groups for families/partners of addicts? You could try AdFam?

OP
Why do you think you're an enabler?

If you do feel you need to change something towards your DH then change your reaction. It doesn't mean your opinions change, but it may make his change?