Mourning for yourself

[Chickenwings85]

I wasn't sure where else to post this other than here because it's a relationship with yourself.
Any way, does anyone else mourn for the person they once was? I've just come back from a few days away to a place I once worked at (I was an entertainer on a holiday park). Whilst I was there I had a few things I needed to deal with mentally and emotionally, things I had suppressed for so long because I was never able or allowed to think or deal with them again! (Will make a new post on that!) I often look at my old life before responsibilities happend. I miss the woman I once was, I miss the happy, confident, pretty, fun and grab life by the bollocks woman. I feel like I'm mourning her..? I like the life I have now, I have a beautiful DD and DP and I wouldn't change them or anything but I miss the old me so much. Please tell me It's not just me and this has happend to others too. What was the outcome of your mourning? What was life like for you after?

It can churn you up to go back to an old haunt. I did this weekend and, although it wasn't a happy time when I lived there, it was still a significant part of my past and I felt churned up.

So I wouldn't take too seriously the way you're reacting. You're probably viewing things through rose-tinted specs, just a bit.

But yes it's challenging to remember a time we were free of most responsibilities and just having a blast. Who wouldn't miss that?

What you're building now is completely different and, frankly, it generally has a high price. Do you think it's worth it? Do you feel you're investing in something that is worth it?

I'm in my late 40s and have had physical disabilities all of my adult life. Over the last 10 years, though, my health has worsened considerably. I guess I do mourn for times when I could go on all day trips to town, shopping for clothes etc, or for when I could go out by myself without too much trouble, do my own housework and so on. I guess I'm saying I miss that more 'normal' independent life I used to have. Most days I cope with these feelings but some days it really gets to me and I get very upset.

I don't know if these feelings will ever go away completely but I do know that, when I do have a bad day emotionally, the next one will be better.

Maybe we both need to be happy that we had that more carefree life before, as it's what has helped shape how we are today, if that makes sense? See it as a part of the whole person we are now?

Yes I do too. I don't think it's helpful for us though, we can't go back, only forward.