Doing it in my own?/am I just being stupid?

[MamaOfADarlingAndAngel]

Me and my partner have been together 3 years and have a toddler together, we're very much in love and have been through so much together. However my mental health has been increasingly worse this month as I've been struggling to get my medication( hopefully will be sorted tomorrow) and my partner has been sort off pushing it off saying I just have to fight it (anxiety/ depression/ dissociation/OCD) which is obvious but will be a lot easier with him here, he doesn't appreciate how hard intrusive thoughts can be and I don't expect him to I just expect him to be here for me more. He was out with his friends last weekend, he's away in another country working this weekend, and I know he works all week but after work a lot he's not here and in the morning we usually lounge around and I just don't feel like he's here for me. He pushes me away or ignores me after work because he "has his own sh*t to do" and I just have to "get on with it" but I don't know how else to be. I feel so alone. He's all I have got support wise, what else am I meant to do. He's told me he's got to take his friend somewhere tonight and I've been waiting for him to come home and I've rung and he's like oh "we're just going out for food then I'll be back" and I feel like he just takes and takes. Am I being ungrateful I feel like no one else will ever put up with me because of my mental health and how crazy I sound talking about my issues so I'm super lucky. Idk. Sorry for the rant just looking for advice??

He is your partner, partners support, partners do not prioritize friends over their partner. He is being shit. Nothing to do with your MH, he is just being an immature selfish twat

Op do you work?
I know that shouldn't be important. I know that he should put you first and support you.
The only way I can put it is that if he works long hours and you don't, he might have to distance himself at times he's not working to look after himself.

I work and my partner doesn't. He has no problems but we have also been through an awful lot. Work isn't time away from you, it's work. It's probably stressful and if he is coming home and being the one depended on all of the time he might be finding himself needing to take more time away from you just in terms of self care. He can't look after you if he isn't putting himself first, he can't look after you if there's nothing left in the tank. Some time away may be doing him the world of good. He may be exhausted with your mh problems too.

That's the only outside perspective I can offer. I'm not being mean I just try to see things from different sides. Is there any other support you can lean on so you are not so dependent on him? It won't help your relationship otherwise. A support group, friends, getting out a bit more?

He's all I have got support wise, what else am I meant to do

Do you have any friends or family?

In my opinion, we don't get to declare that a specific person has to provide for certain needs of ours. It can be usual for a partner to provide companionship, and certainly if you're in a monogamous relationship then sex and romance and intimacy can only come from that person. But otherwise, we have needs, but they don't necessarily have to be fulfilled by a specific person. You might have a need for companionship, but if your partner has a need for quiet solitude that day, both are important, and it would be reasonable for you to seek to fulfil your companionship needs by visiting a friend, for example.

For support I imagine there are several mental health charities with phone lines you can ring? Or facebook groups, forums and so on. Xxx

Agree with pog. My fiancé supports me wholeheartedly with my mental health.