I am really struggling to deal with the end of a relationship.
We have been together for 9 years and have two children. We have always had to work hard at our relationship, we are not right for each other, we both want different things out of life, I'm ambitious and outgoing he smokes weed and wants to stay in all the time. We had been arguing a lot lately and we started screaming in front of the children, after a bad argument a few weeks ago he decided he had enough and arranged to go and stay with his brother, the said it was over, but then said he is treating this as a break away from me.
I can be hard work too, but I'm going to get some councilling and help for this. A week after we split I read his Facebook messages and saw he had been talking to 4 different girls, it didn't bother me as much as I thought it would but a week later I read them again and one girl in particular (his ex ex) the conversation has moved on, to I can't wait to see u, I miss you etc. I was gutted and logged out so I can't see anything else. I have since confronted him about it and he was angry that I have read his messages and told me that he had already slept together, I felt like I had been punched in the stomach, I can't eat or sleep.
He had had the kids this weekend and I have since found out my son had watched his dad video chat this new girlfriend and he got shy bcoz he didn't want to speak to her and she laughed etc. I'm angry at this. It's been 4 weeks since he moved to his brothers and I feel like my whole world has been turned upside down. I can't eat or sleep proper and I can't stop thinking about them together and what they may be doing. It's the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing I think of at night, I sometimes cry myself to sleep. Please tell me I will get through this, I can't see how I will though,,,, hand hold please