Anyone on here ever been truly suicidal & managed to turn it around with no family?(poss triggering)

[Airportsurvivor]

I'm looking for stories on how you managed it. I'm in a grim place right now. Not suicidal this minute but I think about it sometimes as an escape. I'm in long-term therapy for extreme abuse. I want to get my life back but I just don't know how. Positive stories from those who've come out the other side would be greatly appreciated.

Me. I was suicidal, and I don’t have any family to speak of.

Therapy helped. Anti-depressants helped. Finding things that made me happy (or if not happy, content). For me that was reading, writing, films, seeing friends, swimming.

The things that really helped were coming to understand that I have a place in the world just as much as anyone else, and that I wouldn’t always feel this way. No feeling is permanent. Then it became a question of riding it out rather than thinking ‘this is how life will always be.’

I hope some of this has struck a chord and is helpful.

I have a couple of things in my life that make it worth living now (my work, two friends, and my cats, who need me), and I’m currently trying to reduce my dose of antidepressants - very slowly! - after being on them for over 20 years.

Sending you very best wishes

Jesus ....no not swearing....seriously Jesus Christ. I had picked out a tree but couldn’t drive into it because the kids would have to go past it every day to get to school. I couldn’t do life anymore . My 9 year old son talked to me about Christ & I ended up giving my life to Jesus. I remember standing in my kitchen and saying I can’t do this anymore...take my life Jesus . I’d started needing alcohol to self medicate. I would have my first drink when the kids left for school. That was the first thing he dealt with. I don’t even like alcohol anymore. Completely delivered . Learning to give him everything else now.

Re no family...I am nc with a narc mother. My father is dead & I am nc with all members of “their”famiies. It’s my kids & my husband , we’re it.

Once you have forgiven and drawn a line in the sand and shaken off the past it will be time to start afresh.
To be psychologically free of the past and
to move forward slowly one day at a time. Living for the here and now. Not the past or the future.
Keep on with the therapy. Try mindfulness meditation, yoga, exercise, change diet. Do things that you have never done before, make life new again, be curious about it. In other words be reborn. Throw out the hard drive and replace with a new one and start reprogramming yourself the way that you want to and not what others wanted for you.

You need to stand up and fight these thoughts. You're worth it honestly. 'It will pass' is so true.

I decided that the 'there's no point to me' and 'I'm worthless' voices in my head could apply to everyone. Is there really any point to anything or anyone at the end of the day? Even people who do horrendous things don't feel worthless. I forced myself to find things that made life worth living - a bunch of cheap flowers in a vase on the table, a sniff of a gorgeous smelling candle, looking at the stars, a sunset, 90s dance music on full blast through headphones.

The 'you're fucking up your DC and they'd be better off with you dead' voices were harder to argue with but I decided I'd fuck them up more by leaving them and the cycle might continue.

I also couldn't think up a method of suicide which wouldn't traumatise the people who'd have to scrape me up!

No family (they'd all disowned me that was why I was suicidal!), just a H who doesn't do emotions .

I have myself permission to slow down and "potter".

Sometimes I get cross with myself that in capable of so much more - and that others achieve more. But then I come around again and realise how lucky I am to be off that hamster wheel and living a life of pottling!

Because I don't ever want to go back to that place (it's been 3 years and I believe I am still in recovery...) I refuse/say no to a lot of things. Anything I feel will be detrimental to my MH is set aside.

PS as for family. I refuse to die and risk those cunts raise my children! Twisted motivation to stay alive!