Ok, new poster, never done this kind of thing before but I need an outlet so please be gentle with me.
Situation - blended family, 3 grown up kids, one still at home. Partner is very nice and all but I think I 'settled' after a sad divorce and 10 years later I have a friend but not a lover. A very old friend of mine got in touch over the summer , ok, friend who I had a brief summer thing with in the good old days. I know that the online exchanges we have are unfaithful to our partners, I'm not stupid. We talk about lots of things ranging from mundane everyday chat to uncensored descriptions of sex with each other. We have had sex before, back in the day. I know there can be no future in this as much as I would like there to be. We met at a reunion over the summer and several mutual friends remarked that they couldn't get near us for the tension and unspoken 'thing' that appeared to them to hold us together. I don't deny this and neither does he. We both know that something is hanging in the air. I also know that you don't behave the way he has (and I have) if you're not somewhat interested. I know he fancied me when we were younger, I know he thought I wasn't interested (I was, just scared of rejection) and I know I hurt him, disappointed him with something that happened. I've thought about him lots over the years and I still love him. He has a family, a wife, a good life, we're both walking a good path in life and are grateful for that. How the hell did we find ourselves here? What happens now? I can't just forget him and I don't doubt he has the same memory issues. Am I a total idiot to even think we might, just might, get another chance at the happiness we almost touched but life happened and we faced challenges that blocked the way?