Hi everyone, I have made an account as I don't know where else to turn - I don't have any "Mum friends" and my own parents i'm not that close to.
Cutting a really long story "short":
When my little boy (now just turned 6) was around 9 months old I split up with his Dad, (totally mutual decision) who has increasingly detatched himself from my sons life as he's grown a new family to the point it's looking as though court will be involved ect ect. but this means that my son hasn't seen his Dad in a long time , who he adores, and this really bothers him (and in turn upsets me too).
Soon after my relationship with his Dad ended, I formed a new relationship which has been going 4 and a half years. However this relationship is slowly breaking down. We broke up at Christmas for about 2 weeks because I was tired and worn down being the one that always makes the effort, as he doesn't do anything to show me he loves me anymore really, and after a discussion last week it looks like this relationship is going the same way as nothing has changed since our break up. We own a house together and although it has taken a while as he isn't a natural when it comes to children him and my son have a really close bond.
Bascially I feel horrendous guilt towards my son as I know if we split up it will break his heart. I feel like i'm ruining his life through my own actions and decisions in life to end relationships and I feel like a worthless Mother because i'm putting him through so much crap at such a young age.
Does anyone else have any experience with something similar? Don't mean to sound too dramatic but I feel sick inside at the thought of hurting him. He will loose my partners Mum & Dad too who regularly care for him before/after school while we work.
Thank-you