i had to send you something and ask for your truth and honest opinion and honestly some HELP ( yes help in capital was delibertely done )
Ps this is a fake email i had to hide my identity and who i am please understand why i had to do that and thanks for reading and maybe replying im sure you get hundreads if not thousands of emails
Ps names locations have been changed to protect the identity of my self and the individuals this is a true story but feels like a nightmare if not a mid fairy tale
Well my story starts nearly (lets say many many years ago5plus)
Asain wedding
The sister in law( to be ) and me well where sitting on a bed i had a headace my head was on her lap and she was massaging it . Felt very nice smoothing and relaxing well thats not the point . What happened next is what amazed me and shocked me she kissed me on my forehead and i liked it and wanted more so i said kiss me again and she did i was shocked than i said on the cheeks and she went no u kiss me so i got up and kisses her on the forehead and cheeks and we well french kissed . Was my first time kissing a women( i mean we where both teenagers) and for her as well . Well we heard a noise and stopped i rememeber later on that day taking her to the kitcken and doing it all again . Kissing her forehead cheeks than french kissing her . It felt amazing truly amazing i used to smack her bum and steal a kiss anytime i could . At nights we all use to share the same room. About 8 people to one room of not 10 . I would go out when everyone sleep and take her with me and sit her on my lap and kiss her . We would steal anymoment together we would go to her house send her brothers to the farest shop possible and be alone kiss on the bed . It was passion it was lust it was wow fantastic . When i would be a sleep she use to say i wish i could have kisses you whilist you where a sleep i use to say you should have .I said to her marry me she turned around and said she would but its too late her sister and me where getting married and our names and cards and stuff had been done for us to get married . That broke my heart . She didnt want to break what had already been planned but i wanted her . More than anything else . So i went with it and married her sister . We had a few moments on our own but nothing happened . A few times i tried to recreate the same situation even when i was married trying to get a head massage with my head on her lap but nothing . I was once in bed kissing my wife and i saw her walk in i saw her but just ignored her . A few years later we went back to see my sister in law and her family and once again everyone was sleeping in the same room i was across the room and i blew her a kiss she looked at me and just closed her eyes and tried to go to sleep like nothing happenes i rememeber bringing her up on what had happened a few years ago but she acted like nothing had happened. 2 years ago i saw her and first thing she said when she saw the whole family was my name she just shouted it and i felt some warmth feeling like wow
Than again nothing happened
She recently was getting engaged but nothing happened of it i was happy but it would have meant she would have been a lot closer and in the same country but it didnt happen now she is officially engaged and preprations are taking place to get married . 9 months time ( like pregrancy ) i have 9 months but nothing will happen
Ive dreamnt about her many times . Even when i make love to my wife its like me making love to my sister in law .
My wife has a zero sex drive and well my sister in law even though we never had sex you could tell it was a high energy
Last night i dreamnt about her in her wedding dress and me french kissing her me and her alone no one else in the room .
Now you ask me if i leave my wife i can have my sister in law . NO because its an asain wedding as i said and her house/family would not accept it .
My ideal plan would be to run away with her but that wont happen either
Ideal real life sceniro would be to marry my sister in law with everyones blessing that would mean my prayers and wishes have come true that what i want and need but aint happening any help and advice please thanks in advance and aplogise for the spelling mistakes
Ps what i wouldnt mind happening is going to see my sister in law ask her all these questions and ideally get her pregrant
Can anyone please help me would be very greatfull this is nightmare