Possible PND and feeling distant towards partner

[ewanthenondreamsheep]

I’m beginning treatment for PND albeit low level. I seem to be constantly tired and lack get up and go. But I’m starting to doubt my diagnosis and wonder if I’ve just realised how unhappy I am with my life and especially if I’ve made a mistake having a baby with my partner. I have a good quality of life and on paper tick all the boxes but how will I know if it’s medical or situational?

I sometimes feel overwhelmed by the monotony of my days and how I feel trapped. I care for my baby and put on a great face but sometimes wish I hadn’t had him and feel like it’s too much responsibility for me and I wish I could run away.

Does anyone have experience of these feelings? So as not to drip feed I’m on about day 10 of low dose ADs and waiting list for CBT but I’m scared I’ve just made a mess of my life and there’s no hope

Are you happy with your partner?

I don’t know. I’m not happy with anything right now. I feel quite flat and ambivalent about most things. But I keep focusing on our relationship and I can’t tell if that’s a symptom or the cause. Sorry it’s silly of me to post as no-one can really help me.

Give it time. If you feel the same in a few weeks then reassess the situation. AD's take time to work. How did you feel before pregnancy and the birth?