I am new at this so sorry in advance for any out of the ordinary post, I am a full time student and mother of 2 children aged 5 and 9, I am pretty isolated to say the least with no friends or family to talk to so here we go my husband and I have been married for about 10 years. I married very young at only 19 years old. I realized it was a mistake in 2016 after infidelities in the marriage on his end and just a lack of respect. We separated for about 10 months which in that time I was struggling financially and my mother suddenly passed away and I had to use all the money I had at that time saved up to pay for a funeral. He came offering to travel with me to her funeral I agreed because I really needed the help financial to even make the long 14hiur trip by car after I had used all my money for the funeral arrangements it self. So anyways I choose to give it another shoot being that he as the only one I really had to comfort me in such a time of greif. We moved back in together but he started calling being very verbally abusive calling me names and cursing at me in front of my children when something didn’t go his way like stupid b and say f off. I have told him many times to not speak to me in that manner and he says then don’t piss me off?? So I get no where taking like an adult to him. But tonite was the icing on the cake he comes home after drinking and tugs on a piece of my sons curly hair to get his attention in a playful manner but did it hard as he say was not hard at all but my son started to cry so I immediately intervene and and got informant of my son who he began to shoot at and he said to our son you little punk a B* I’m not raising no wimp!! I really lost my shit inside my head that is I stood up for my son and said he is not those things and you should be ashamed of your self as I walk my son upstairs to conform him as much as I could I held him and let him know that he is wrong and no one should ever say mean things like that to you you are a smart strong boy and don’t let what he said make you feel any different. But this broke my heart like I’m crying as I write this but I just had to get it out I wanna pack my shit and leave now but where will I go to stay in a shelter with my 2 kids? Just don’t know which move to make next any suggestions anyone and please no judging