Gay regret?

[CranberryJellies]

I was with men for a long time. Teens up until having kids. All of it.Up until my mid 30s. I always wanted a relationship with a woman. I've spent 4 years now with women.
My first 3 experiences with women were very butch. Masculine. Very much my type but
I fell in love with a femme girl
We moved in.
We don't have a connection anymore. My kids adore her though. I don't think anyone else would deal with them.
I miss the masculinity of butch women. Even men. I've been fantising about men.

I spent years wanting a woman and feeling unfulfilled with men

Now I feel the same again

W hats wrong with me :(

I think u need to be on your own till you know what you want.

I've spent time on my own. I had 2 years after my marriage break up.

Are you basing these feelings on mostly your sexual urges? I mean I don’t want I make light of it but sexually I would like Tom Hardy but I can’t have him.
It comes across that you seem to want something but you don’t know what it is... is it safety and security? Is it that you like dominant partners? What could have happened in your life that means you find it hard to settle or connect with people (if this is the case). It sounds like your relationship is dead but it also sounds like you are chasing a dream of some kind.

It’s ok to have a type. I do. But that’s not the be all and end all because it is how people treat you and love you that really counts. Not just their image or demeanour

There is nothing wrong with you, you tried outside of your type (who hasn’t?) and she isn’t rocking it for you.

I had this with a really nice guy, turned out he was too nice, too much of a pretty boy. I like rugged men who is my equal.

It’s chemical, nothing wrong at all.

The 3 women I were with, they weren't relationships. Just flings when I got over my marriage and decided to come out.

The first person I felt an emotional connection to was my girlfriend. But it seems that connection is sort of platonic. There's no sexual connection at all now.

Maybe you are bi-sexual?

Sexually I do want a strong woman. It's like I want the manly aesthetic without the man behaviour and penis

I don't know if no can go through it all again. Breaking up and dating. It's so stressful.

I wouldn't want a man. No way.

I wouldn't ever go there again. I enjoy the male body to look at but I don't like certain things about sex with them and I don't like how they behave. I much prefer women but not girly women.

I’m assuming you do have feelings for your girlfriend, even if your not attracted to her. So in that instance, break up for her sake and also your kids.

It is horrible the dating malarkey, I hate it, but your not going to bring happiness to your home sticking it out

You wasted a lot of time forcing yourself to be into men. Don't waste anymore time. It's not fair on you, or your girlfriend.