I have a wonderful 9 year old child from a previous relationship. My ex became really abusive pretty much the moment I fell pregnant. That mental abuse only became worse once our child was born. I honestly don't know how I coped with it but can only think that after giving birth I felt like a superhero that could deal with anything that previously would have made me crumble.
I am now in a new and very happy relationship and have been for 7 years. My partner is the total opposite to my ex and treats me like a queen. We have just moved into our first home together and he really wants a baby. I do too as I'm older now (almost 10 years later!) and want a 2nd chance at being a happy family but I'm just so terrified.
Terrified of things going wrong, being a single parent again. Being pregnant and so vulnerable again, of the unknown and of going through that again with 2 children. I just don't think I could cope. Deep down I know he is a different man and isn't like my ex but I just can't help how I feel.
I decided to stop taking contraception and since I can't stop crying and my anxiety is going through the roof.
Sorry I'm just venting and ranting on....Has anyone else been through a similar thing?