I’m utterly miserable. I feel like our relationship has just gone to shit.
Married for 3 years with a 1yo DC, together for nearly a decade.
Backstory; We met when I was 18, DH is 13 years older. The first 5 years were great, I then had some issues with depression and anxiety, but after a year of working hard and meds, I was back on track. The relationship picked up again for a year or so, we decided to marry and got caught up in the planning and joy that weddings seem to bring. But I would say that we haven’t been fully okay for the last 4 years - without distractions it’s blatantly obvious we’re not happy.
We’ve had intimacy problems since I suffered with my mental health, basically, my lack of self confidence and sadness just turned him off and we’ve never got it back. I don’t think he’s been attracted to me for a while, but this has just gotten worse post pregnancy. He admitted that my stretch marks, thicker waist and jiggly belly repulse him. Also my lack of body confidence is not appealing difficult to have when your considered repulsive.
This, teamed with his inability to ever be happy, constant moods, bitchiness to everyone (family, friends, innocent people walking down the street - he’ll tear apart their appearance!) has just left me bitter, miserable.
...and to be honest, I just don’t like him. I’m sick of the rows, sick of guessing what the latest problem is. But my main concern is that this is entirely me. Am I just sinking back into depression and focusing in on our relationship? I’m just desperate for a bit of advice before I snap. 
Motherhood has come as a shock to the system, and I’m just curious if anyone else has felt like this - a year post partum - and fixed it?