Arrrrgggghhhh just arrrrgggghhhh.
I am a very happy mummy of three, two boys and a very new baby girl. My husbands mum lives in Australia but is umming and ahhing about moving back. She has been living in our small house for 4 MONTHS - taking up the whole of my maternity leave so far. I am pathologically averse to conflict so perpetually find myself pandering to everyone else’s whims and feel now totally out of control of my own life and I don’t want the endless ‘suggestions’ and ‘help.’ I just want my life back. I just want some time with my husband and family. She recently went on a five-day mini break, during which time I actually had a chance to experience a natural family situation and spend some beautiful, quality time with my hub and babies. Consequently, my mood has hit the floor since she’s back. I’m experiencing an ‘accuse stress reaction’ (like a mild panic attack, but one that lasts for hours) and am literally going to have to drug myself to get through the next few weeks. I think my husband thinks I’m being melodramatic and will not tolerate me trying to let off steam or explain how utterly terrible I feel. My hands are shaking as I sit hear and type this as she’s sitting just across from my holding my middle son. I could cry.