Me and my current partner jumped into the relationship too fast. Moved in by month 3 (I know). Anyway, we are 3 years in and were both still in the relationship just for habit it seems.
I love him as a person but not as a romantic partner. He loves me. We don't get on very often. I think in his heart he knows we aren't right for each other. He moved miles and miles to be with me, started a new life here. He has no family or friends.
I'm currently financially dependent on him due to a car accident which has left me with long life medical issues. Before that I worked but wasn't well off, no savings, lived day to day.
When he wants to make love I cringe, when he wants a kiss, I can feel an emptiness inside of me, I'm not affectionate the majority of the time and we need to part but I'm stuck! He does work but doesn't make enough for a deposit and a month's rent up front. I'm dependant on him for help and money which is absolutely awful I know but it is what it is.
Anybody else stayed in a relationship waisting your life away knowing you have no future just to provide a roof over your head? It easier for people to say "Oh just leave", there will be people here who know how hard it is. Could anybody come up with a plan for me or something? I'm miserable and it's my own fault ☹️