Ive been with my partner 10 years since we were teenagers, we have 3 kids eldest being 9, youngest being 3.
I cant ever remember a particular 'good' patch in our relationship but we've plodded on over the years.
After my 3rd child was born I completely lost interest in the relationship, I guess between the stress of being a young mum with 3 young children, running of the house and working part time. A year ago a found myself having an E.A, nothing physical ever went on just more like a friendship with some flirting/messages but he found out through checking my phone. I was relieved as at that point I thought, this is it, I'm finally going to get out of this toxic relationship thought he'd 100% leave but infact he begged me not to end it, I told him it had to end because he would never be able to forgive me and I had broken trust, he promised he'd never bring it up again.
A year has passed, no further contact with om, and life is hell, everything I do is suspicious, anywhere i go has to be pre-planned, even put shopping, we argue nonstop (always did, but so much worse), he always wants sex and I'm uninterested but if I dont it turns into a huge argument because apparently I must be getting it elsewhere.
This week it came to blows again, he turns into a total nutter but I've begged him to leave, told him that we would all be much happier if we seperated (including kids) but he just wont have it, threatens to kill himself ect. Problem is that I feel the relationship has run its course, there is nothing there on my part, but on his he is totally besotted and obsessed with me, personally I think its a comfort thing deep down.
In desperate need of some advice and even stories of anyone whos been in a similar situation with a difficult partner with some light at the end of the tunnel 💕