So there is this guy at work. When I first clapped eyes on him we had this intense chemistry. I don't know what it is but it's there. I don't work directly with him but pass him most mornings. At first I thought nothing more of it.
I should add I am in a long term relationship and have a dd. He is married and has three children. He's a good bit older than me, at least years, maybe even 15 years.
I had to work with him the other day directly and it was almost unbearable. He flirted a little but I didn't....but the chemistry and the intensity was all there. I'm seriously attracted to him.
Since working with him I've been besotted. My tummy flips when I see him, I think about him a lot and fantasise....im really sad that nothing could happen between us. I couldn't cheat on my dp and I couldn't do that to his family either. I don't know if he would consider going down that root but I couldn't. He did mention his wife and kids a lot so that's a good sign he's not willing to cheat.
I feel so confused. Dp and I are meant to be ttc and now I'm questioning everything about myself. I love dp, he is the nicest person I've ever met and he doesn't deserve this.
I don't know what to do. Part of me wants to keep lusting after this man because I enjoy the feelings he gives me but then i think of I strayed what a mess it would all be and the guilt. I couldn't do it.