I am married, nigh on 20 years now. Kids, house, car, lots of hard times,some pretty good ones too.I love him in the sense that we have history and know each other well and I'm hoping that is enough to carry us through.
But I'm so unhappy. I have never found him particularly sexually attractive, I made the decision to marry him for friendship reasons,and really I tolerate sex rather than anything else. We get on very well,and I feel like a total shit for feeling like this.
You are probably not going to be surprised to hear that I have some really strong feelings for someone else. To be clear,I have no intention of acting on these feelings, but it has made me really aware of the difference between being sexually attracted to someone and not being attracted like that at all.
I'm expecting a ton of bricks from you all for being such a loser,but if any of you could give me any advice about how to move forward I would appreciate it. I genuinely don't know what to do.