I've been in an emotionally abusive relationship for 5 years. Before this I was a strong, independent single parent of 2 (now 4). I often question what the hell has happened to make me so weak.
Obviously I know the answer, it's how I've been broken down mentally and now I can barely make a decision without seeking approval, it's ridiculous. I think my dad has started to see through him and I've been opening up to my best friend and I feel like I am slowly gaining the confidence to end it.
I'm not entirely sure of what's stopping me. I know my life will be less stressful and so much easier without him. I'm fairly sure he'd not bother with the kids if we split up so I suppose that's been a worry. Also he's such an arsehole that "if" he did bother he'd turn up with the next girlfriend with him to play happy families within days of us separating and I haven't felt mentally strong enough to rise above it tbh.
He's spent all my (considerable) savings and I literally have nothing. I had a lovely house, a brand new high end car, a job I loved and lots of friends when I first met him. Now, I live in a council house, don't even own a vehicle, haven't worked for 3 yrs and only have one friend. All of these things I know I can change but it's so hard starting again.
Anyway, I just wanted to get it all out. I've had such a shit couple of weeks but am starting to see glimmers of hope.